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| my list |
| 08.31.04 (10:16 am) [edit] |
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At the request of Cyberpal and Shespecies here's my list. (X) - you’ve done (_) - you haven’t done (/) - kinda (#) - you need not know (X) been drunk (X) kissed a member of the opposite sex (X)kissed a member of the same sex (_) crashed a friend’s car (But had mine crashed by a boyfriend!) (_) been to Japan (X) ridden in a taxi (UGH?!) (X) been in love (X) been dumped (_)shoplifted (_) been fired (Been close though) (X) been in a fist fight (X) snuck out of my parent’s house (X) ever had a crush on someone of the same sex (_) ever dated someone of the same sex (/ had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back (/) been arrested (long story!) (X) made out with a stranger (X) made a booty call (X) been a booty call (/) stole something from my job (Do paper tacks, staples and copier paper count?!) (X) celebrated new years in time square (X) gone on a blind date (remember Bob??) (X) lied to a friend (X) a friend lied to me (X) had a crush on a teacher (Aahh...Mr VanTine :P) (X) celebrated Mardi-gras in new Orleans (X) been to Europe (X) skipped school (X) slept with a co-worker (X) cut myself (X) been married (unfortunatly) (X) gotten divorced (ty God) (X) had children (Two wonderful ones!) (X) seen someone die (_) been to Africa (#) had a crush on one of my tBLOG/Blurty friends (/) slapped someone I loved (X) driven over 400 miles to attend a show/festival/fetish ball (X) been to Canada (X been to Mexico (X) been on a plane (X) seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show (several thousand times) (X) thrown up in a bar (omg!) (_) purposely set a part of myself on fire (X) eaten sushi (X) been snowboarding (broke my butt!) (X) met someone in person from the Internet (/) been moshing at a concerts (X) had real feelings for someone you knew only online (#) taken partially nude/nude photos of yourself (heh) (X) been in an abusive relationship (X been pregnant or got someone pregnant (X) lost a child (X) graduated college (X) tried killing yourself (X) taken painkillers (X) had sex (Duh?!) (_) intentionally burned yourself (X) wished someone dead (X) wish someone dead right now (yup!) (X) admitted to making a big mistake (X) been misunderstood (often..) (/) told someone I hated them when I didn’t (_) told someone I loved them when I didn’t (I don't give those words away easily) (X) love someone or miss someone right now Your turn :wink: |
| meh! |
| 08.28.04 (11:23 pm) [edit] |
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[i]Who do you think I am? [/i]:evil: |
| restless |
| 08.28.04 (1:06 am) [edit] |
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I have been so restless the past few nights. Sleep seems to elude me until the wee hours of the morning. My mind is so full of thoughts churning and racing..it won't shut off long enough to relax :cry: Solution..quit my job and definately get laid! :shock: |
| silence |
| 08.25.04 (2:56 pm) [edit] |
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Your silences cut through me like a knife. Leaving my imagination to run wild.. to think you have left me in a loveless black void. My heart cries out for just a word to know that you are there... to qwell my childish insecurity. |
| El Guerrouj is Golden |
| 08.24.04 (9:56 pm) [edit] |
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I am an admitted Olympic Junkie. I watch all day and into the wee hours of the morning. It's as if I feel that I owe these athletes my tribute for their lifetime of commitment to their respective sports. In my hours of viewing I think this evenings Mens 1500m race will stand out in my mind forever. Hicham El Guerrouj, of Morocco, is one of the most decorated middle distance runners ever...but the Olympic Gold has eluded him for the past eight years. In 1996 in Atlanta he tripped on the final lap and finished last. In Sydny, 2000, he was overtaken in the final meters by Noah Ngeny of Kenya...he laid on the track sobbing in despair convinced that he had let his entire country down. This night as he stood on the track he was no longer the favorite to win this race. Kenya's Bernard Lagat was expected to win the race. As he took his place you could see the look of determination on his face. The thousands of people in the stands did not exsist to this man...only his race. At the gun he had a good start and was running strong but Lagat was keeping a slow pace making it easier for the entire field to finish strong. El Guerrouj began to fade and drop back and I felt a stab of disappointment. I really wanted this man to win! I wanted to see him realize a dream. I found myself up on my feet screaming at the TV: GO! GO! RUN! And what do you know? He suddenly got his wind and pulled ahead of Lagat. They ran shoulder to shoulder in a thrilling finish with El Guerrouj finishing a mere 12 hundreths of a second over Lagat. The scene that followed was so poetic as El Guerraouj fell to his knees and began to sob uncontrollably with joy...and Lagat being a class act was the first to congratulate him. It's good to see dreams realized. It gives one hope for your own lifes wishes. 8) |
| things change |
| 08.23.04 (4:34 am) [edit] |
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It's funny sometimes how people change and [i]why[/i] they change. This was so evident to me this weekend as I spent nearly 8 hours in the company of my friend Azmatali. Az and I have some history. We used to be at each others throats most of the time. He seemed to think very little of me and I thought he was an arrogant, pompous ass! [i]Then one day it all changed[/i]. When I said shahada I knew my life was changing in big ways...but I never imagined that I was going to gain a big over protective brother in Az. :wink: It's actually kind of nice to know I have someone looking out for me and someone I can run to with my endless questions about Islam. [i]It's nice when life's journey takes us in an unexpected direction.[/i] |
| Restless night |
| 08.21.04 (9:17 pm) [edit] |
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Restless night laying on the pillows looking out the window at the bright moon... Wondering If you feel the same. I get lost in thoughts of your smile.. the light in your eyes.. the way you hold a glass as you sip your beloved 7up. Restless night I toss and turn in this big empty bed... praying for sleep to come for I know you will visit my dreams. |
| the things you say |
| 08.20.04 (8:29 am) [edit] |
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Sometimes the things you say to me catch me so off guard...they make me feel like a school girl...all giggly and breathless. I think you enjoy this. I think knowing how I squirm gives you a smile. When you say you love me my heart feels as if it will fly from my chest and the words no longer make the correct journey from my brain to the keyboard and all the while you sit there smiling at me with that devastating smile knowing I can't look away. How does it feel knowing my eyes never leave you? Even in your absence you are everywhere...on my desktop, my desk. I keep your image close at hand to keep me company during my day...[i]and you ask if I am ready for you to be here?[/i] :wink: |
| Madness |
| 08.19.04 (1:02 am) [edit] |
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In the movie Excalibur Merlin refers to love as a sickness.."[i]it's madness all of this hair pulling and [/i][i]jumping about[/i]". He then goes on to say "[i]It's just like a cake. You never know what you are going to get until you bite in and then it's too late!"[/i] Merlin my brother you are so right...I have bitten into this cake! :shock: What have I gotten? Sleepless nights...lack of concentration..idiotic thoughts (i.e. hair pulling and jumping about??). [i]OOOOH what have I done?[/i] :shock: |
| more thoughts to "A" |
| 08.17.04 (2:08 am) [edit] |
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You write and tell me that you are losing sleep also. It gives me something to think about as I lie awake and stare at the ceiling yet another night. It is an odd comfort to know you are doing the same thing...and for the same reason. You send me a disarming messege in the middle of a meeting.."I will fill your bed..then we both will sleep" :roll: How am I supposed to think right after reading that?? My mind immediately goes to you...those dark, dancing eyes...that almost boyish grin...those beautiful shoulders that I long to throw my arms around... [i]No man has ever gotten to me the way you have.[/i] |
| musings |
| 08.15.04 (7:42 pm) [edit] |
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There are some people we meet in our lives that we have an instant connection to. There is no rational explanation for it...it's some intangible thing that you can't put your finger on. Maybe it's their smile or the way they meet your eyes when they speak...but you feel you have know them your entire life. There is such a comfortable feeling with this person..a total trust. I wonder why this is.... :wink: |
| Letter to "A" |
| 08.12.04 (6:22 pm) [edit] |
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It seems to me that you grow more handsome every time I look at you. How is this?? You are a most beautiful man...nauture took its time sculpting you to perfection. I could sit and look upon the curve of your neck forever...so perfect it is! I look at you and I long to run my hands over your body...to feel the tautness of your muscles beneath my fingers. I want to run my fingers through your hair while you smile at me with that incredible smile...kiss those adorable dimples that show when you laugh. When I close my eyes I still see you...smiling, eyes dancing. You leave me breathless. [i]I cannot escape the fact that I need you[/i]. |
| Kinky! |
| 08.10.04 (9:43 pm) [edit] |
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I pinched this from rinna... It was so darn accurate i had to put it up. :oops: Take the quiz: "What Is Your Kink?"  Exhibitionism The world is your stage, and everyone in it is your audience, whether they like it or not. Your favorite place to have sex is the pitcher's mound of a ball stadium, under the arena lights. You are extremely loud when having sex. You don't mind people watching, taking pictures or videotaping you no matter what you're doing. Your motto is It's all about ME! Ok the funny thing about this one is my biggest fantasy is to do it on the pitchers mound at Fenway Park...Go Figure!! :twisted: |
| The value of change |
| 08.10.04 (9:34 pm) [edit] |
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I spoke today with an old chat friend. He seemed disturbed with me....he said I appeared to have changed a great deal lately and wanted an explaination. I didn't really feel like having the conversation with him right then so I just sort of told him I had to go. I have thought about his statement all evening. [i]It's true[/i]. I [i]have[/i] changed a lot in a short time. But isn't change and forward progress a valuable tool in our lives?? :?: Without change we would become stagnant..complacent. Life without change really isn't living, it's merely stacis....us just floating in the big petry dish of life. So, to you Ukie, I say this... Yes I have changed! And probably not for reasons [i]you [/i]would deem rational. I am all luuved up....I have found religion..hell I even like my job. But I have peace of mind... and that's a hell of a lot more than some folks ever have. :wink: |
| Untitled |
| 08.09.04 (9:51 am) [edit] |
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Sunlight dappling on water As birds sing their summer songs. I watch the ripples as they move across the pond, and I am acutely aware of your absence... of the distance that separates us now. I watch the dragon flys hurriedly moving from one destination to the next and wish that I too had wings so I could fly to you. |
| Mahungas |
| 08.09.04 (9:42 am) [edit] |
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Ok I have been reminded that I owe some peeps some mahungas for voting for me for featured blog...so here are some "cyber-mahungas" LMAO!! :shock: ( * ) ( * ) ~muah~ |
| bluesy mood |
| 08.08.04 (11:14 pm) [edit] |
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[i]Couldn't have said this better myself... Alicia Keyes is awesome.[/i] Some people live for the fortune Some people live just for the fame Some people live for the power, yeah Some people live just to play the game Some people think that the physical things define what's within, And I've been there before but that life's a bore, so full of the superficial Chorus: And some people want it all, but I don't want nothing at all if it ain't you baby, If I ain't got you baby Some people want diamond rings, Some just want everything, but everything means nothing if I ain't got you Verse 2: Some people search for a fountain, That promises forever young Some people need three dozen roses, and that's the only way to prove you love them Hand me the world on a silver platter, and what good would it be With noone to share With noone who truly cares for me Chorus: And some people want it all, but I don't want nothing at all if it ain't you baby, If I ain't got you baby Some people want diamond rings Some just want everything But everything means nothing if I ain't got you Yeah, If I ain't got you with me baby Oh, See nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing if I ain't got you with me baby [b] :wink: Who can't you live without??[/b] |
| WOOOO HOOOO |
| 08.08.04 (3:54 pm) [edit] |
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Hot Damn! I made Featured Blog :o !!! Thanks for the votes everyone...I feel soooo special :) Luv ya all! ~muah~ |
| WoW |
| 08.07.04 (8:08 pm) [edit] |
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Today my blog has passed the 5000 views mark. Hard to believe in just a few short months. I am indeed humbled. Thanks for reading. 8) |
| Suck my toes!!! |
| 08.06.04 (11:01 pm) [edit] |
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This was so wierd that I had to share it with you: AMSTERDAM, Netherlands - Toe-licking could become a criminal offense in the Netherlands after a man who licked the toes of several women was released by police without charges. The toe-licker, whose name was not released, was arrested in Rotterdam earlier this week after a woman who had been sunbathing said he unexpectedly licked her bare foot. Other women had also complained, and the 35-year-old man has reportedly been pursuing his fetish for years, but prosecutors in Rotterdam said they are powerless to stop him. "A lick over the foot doesn't qualify as a crime: there has to be some kind of objective sex act committed," said prosecution spokesman Cees van Spierenburg in the Rotterdam Daily newspaper. "That's the way the law is." Lawmakers Peter van Heemst and Aleid Wolfsen, members of the leading opposition Labor Party, asked Justice Minister Piet Hein Donner in a formal complaint to change the law. "How can you explain that we can prosecute someone for throwing a cigarette butt or soda can on the ground, but not for this kind of misbehavior?" the men wrote. :wink: Wot you think about that?? |
| freudian slip? | ||
| 08.06.04 (3:09 pm) [edit] | ||
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I snagged this from Rinna..Do ya thinks its accurate of what? LMAO div align="center"
personality tests by similarminds.com |
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| I AM a shoe whore! |
| 08.05.04 (9:17 pm) [edit] |
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Catherine recently pointed out to me that I might be a shoe whore. Upon inspecting my closet today I have come to the conclusion that she is indeed correct.... [i]I AM a shoe whore!![/i] :shock: I stood there and took a mental inventory of mybeloved shoes: 4 prs Prada 3 prs Gucci 5 pr assorted Birkenstocks 4 prs of Evan Piccone pumps 8 prs of assorted nike and reebok tennis shoes 1 pr of Wolverine Hiking boots 2 pairs of Eastland oxfords 15 prs of assorted sandals..yikes! And then my most precious of foot wear My Dolce and Gabanna boots and my 4 pairs of Manolos. [i]Nobody needs this many shoes!!!!!!!!!![/i] :twisted: Who am I kidding.. I am going shoe shopping tomorrow! |
| of lunch meetings and balding men |
| 08.04.04 (8:33 am) [edit] |
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Today I was subjected to the most unpleasant luncheon meeting with the absolute rudest man I have ever met. He was 30 minutes late which has put me behind for the rest of the day now. Once we ordered our food I suggested we get down to business. He seemed very distracted and I noticed he was staring at my chest the entire time I was speaking to him. Shit I hate that! Every time I would start to talk about the project he would shift the subject to "why don't we have dinner tonite and catch a movie" or "why don't you let me cook for you tonite" AAAARGH!!! :evil: This is supposed to be a [i]business [/i]meeting....why are you hitting on me?? Why do short, balding, unattractive men think they are God's gift to the female population??? :roll: Fortunately my mobile rang (thank you! thank you! Amine!!) and I made an excuse to leave this so-called meeting. The project was never even discussed. I am sure his boss (who is a man hating, Manolo wielding lesbian) would be really interested in hearing about our *cough* progress[i]...*dials the phone* tee hee[/i] I'm such a bitch 8) |
| Birthday Boy |
| 08.04.04 (8:03 am) [edit] |
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Today is Spike's birthday! For the uninitiated, Spike is my dog :) He is a chihuahua and Jack russell terrier mix....so he is very hyper and neurotic as well! He's a cute lil guy. Fawn colored with a scruffy coat around his face and weighs a whopping 8 pounds. He is very protective of his mum and has been known to nip a bf or two in the nose for getting too close! :wink: My lil guy turns 4 today. So as usual I will take him to The Three Dog Bakery to buy him a "pup cake"!! The Three Dog is an incredible place...looks like a human bakery at first glance. But on closer inspection you will find an amazing array of canine delights. They even hold a "Yappy Hour" on thursday evenings for pooches and their owners to get together. Spike enjoys his trips there very much. He's a traveling dog and even goes to the office with me on occasion. Happy Birthday Spikey! 8) |
| AARRRGH |
| 08.04.04 (7:50 am) [edit] |
| I wrote a brialliant post awile ago and the beta engine ate it. :cry: |
| I'm beggin ya!! |
| 08.03.04 (6:04 am) [edit] |
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Ok folks I am trying for the hundredth time for featured blog. Show me some love this week and vote me pleeeeeze!!!! I'll show ya my mahungas :twisted: hahahahaha ~MUAH~ |
| Row your own boat!! |
| 08.03.04 (2:24 am) [edit] |
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You read a lot of philosophies on life here at tblog. I thought I might take moment and share my thoughts. I think the old ditty [i]Row Row Row Your Boat [/i]is the perfect guide to life. Let's break it down. The song says Row your boat...[i]GENTLY DOWN THE [/i][i]STREAM [/i]... not hard...not frantically and definately not upstream. And how do we row? [i]MERRILY[/i]! In other words, be happy. Life is too short to be a big sour puss all the time. Also note that you are rowing [i]YOUR[/i] boat...not your boss's or mom's or your boyfriend's boat...Just yours!! And if somebody else tries to row your boat for you, take the oars back! Row your own damn boat!! [i]Life is but a dream [/i]:wink: |
| Wrapped up |
| 08.02.04 (12:30 am) [edit] |
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After being here at tblog for some months now I find myself being so wrapped up in some peoples lives! A certain few of you having me rushing to my bookmarks every time I log in to see what is new with you or what your latest musing is. You guys put the "fun" in dysfunctional family! :twisted: Luv to some!! Dreaming of others..LOL ~muah~ kendy |